It sits there, right in the middle of her mind. Meditating in the silence, Meditating in peace, Unaware of what it has been giving out is Anger, Guilt and Frustration which bleeds, Bleeds like the blood of the Deer who's bitten in the Jugular by the lioness, who in turn has to feed, the hungry, helpless, wild children of hers.
It has been there, since the day she took her first breath, but unconscious, pale, weak, But then it grew, it was nurtured, fed, bred by the fears, the mistakes, the intolerance of the people around her, who swore to protect and save her from it, but failed, failed miserably, to the one who was the fear of one and all, maybe not consciously but subconsciously, they were scared, frightened by this monster, within themselves, within all but they couldn't save their daughter from drowning within the evil, all they could do was to see even more when they wished to be blind, when they wished their eyes were taken out, the very same eyes which had been seeing this throughout.
It was strong, strong to mix her soul with it's own but not strong enough to take complete control, control over the girl who had been born a fighter, who no one could control except for the one she was in love with, in love with a boy, who made her move according to his mood, like a puppet bound to the strings, she was in love, and did everything to please the boy, the boy was in love with her, the monster was in love with her but the boy was unaware of this evil inside her, so was she, both completely unaware of it, what it had in mind, in mind to steal away the girl, steal her away from him, from the one she loved, the only one she would ever love but the demon didn't care, it wanted her, all to itself, so it intoxicated her, made her words full of hatred, full of anger, made the boy scared, he ran, she tried to fight, tried to get him back but he went, not knowing it was not her but the demon inside of her and she drowned, drowned into the demon, fell in love with the sorrow, sorrow it had given her, she faded away into the evil.
It has been around since then, controlling her, not letting her close to any boy, even the one she loved, it has been inside of her, it has been her, it has not taken its hands off her ever since, it loves her, it savors her, it devours her but she still is in love, in love with the boy, she was once with, once happy with, once who loved her a lot but it killed it, killed the love and kept her to itself, living in the hope that she will love it back, but she will not, it knows this, but it won't believe in it, it will continue to torture her, her and people around her and everything will be gone, gone far away, won't be found, but she will not be able to take it and will give away, give the life away, which once, she had loved, when it was her own, when it was not mixed with a demon's soul.
It has been there, since the day she took her first breath, but unconscious, pale, weak, But then it grew, it was nurtured, fed, bred by the fears, the mistakes, the intolerance of the people around her, who swore to protect and save her from it, but failed, failed miserably, to the one who was the fear of one and all, maybe not consciously but subconsciously, they were scared, frightened by this monster, within themselves, within all but they couldn't save their daughter from drowning within the evil, all they could do was to see even more when they wished to be blind, when they wished their eyes were taken out, the very same eyes which had been seeing this throughout.
It was strong, strong to mix her soul with it's own but not strong enough to take complete control, control over the girl who had been born a fighter, who no one could control except for the one she was in love with, in love with a boy, who made her move according to his mood, like a puppet bound to the strings, she was in love, and did everything to please the boy, the boy was in love with her, the monster was in love with her but the boy was unaware of this evil inside her, so was she, both completely unaware of it, what it had in mind, in mind to steal away the girl, steal her away from him, from the one she loved, the only one she would ever love but the demon didn't care, it wanted her, all to itself, so it intoxicated her, made her words full of hatred, full of anger, made the boy scared, he ran, she tried to fight, tried to get him back but he went, not knowing it was not her but the demon inside of her and she drowned, drowned into the demon, fell in love with the sorrow, sorrow it had given her, she faded away into the evil.
It has been around since then, controlling her, not letting her close to any boy, even the one she loved, it has been inside of her, it has been her, it has not taken its hands off her ever since, it loves her, it savors her, it devours her but she still is in love, in love with the boy, she was once with, once happy with, once who loved her a lot but it killed it, killed the love and kept her to itself, living in the hope that she will love it back, but she will not, it knows this, but it won't believe in it, it will continue to torture her, her and people around her and everything will be gone, gone far away, won't be found, but she will not be able to take it and will give away, give the life away, which once, she had loved, when it was her own, when it was not mixed with a demon's soul.
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